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Interrupting Starfish

Life is crazy. Fo' sho'. Dr. Oxner assigned a case TODAY that's due on FRIDAY. wtf? So much for my plan to not put the next case off until the last minute. At least it's a "short" one (as in, we only have to write 3-4 pages instead of 5-10).

Last night I went to work, even though it was my night off. I hung out with Laura & Trey behind the desk. We played gin and told bad jokes. Har har.

It's like 8 degrees outside, but at 2 o'clock I'm meeting Laura and we're gonna walk to Something Brewing so I can get a frappuccino. Yeah...

Ok, that's it.

The Beginning of the End

My first week of classes is over, and it really wasn't too bad. Life, on the other hand, has been very up & down. I've done a great job of alienating people over the past 3 years, so now I've only got one or two friends. I spent a good part of the week freaking out that I might be pregnant. Also, I think I might be catching Laura's cold. Anyway...

I ordered some prints of the photos I took of Max, and I was expecting them to be here Wednesday or Thursday, but they still haven't arrived. I'm not using Winkflash anymore because I had this problem with them all the time. Until now, I haven't had this problem with Snapfish. Although, I'm wondering if it's because the last 2 times I was ordering 8x10s, and maybe those don't get "misplaced" like 4x6s?

I miss Max. I miss watching TV with him curled up in my lap. I miss watching him chase Xena around the backyard. I miss him begging me to hold him. I miss his circus tricks. I miss baking treats for him. I miss snuggling up with him at night. I miss dressing him up in cute little t-shirts, and dancing to "Fergalicious" and telling him to pop it. I miss the way his little tags jingle when he trots through the house. I miss when he jumps up on the sofa to be with me, and the way he just looks at me like, "I know I'm not supposed to be up here, but I love you!" I miss our play fights and the way he nibbles my fingers. I just miss everything about him...

I want to go home.

Springing Forward

Soon Max's picture will be in that frame. The sunflowers are so cheerful-looking, especially in that rose-colored vase (which I bought last night at Target). The sun finally came out today, and it's making me feel a lot better. January is always my lowest month of the year. It's so cold and cloudy, and I'm just grumpy all the time.

Good vs. Bad...a Fight to the Death

Good Things About Today

• I'm completely lost in Cost Accounting, but it seems like everyone is.
• I found a partner for the CA presentation.
• Dr. Scott found my final. THANK GOD!!
• I don't think I have to take notes in Corporate Strategy...like ever. Everything's on PowerPoint, and she prints the slides out for us.
• Professor Rupert is really nice.

Bad Things About Today

• I spent $730.90 on textbooks.
• The bookstore was sold out of the CA book, so I don't really know what I'm going to do until it gets in. I asked Adam if I could borrow his from last year, but he's not sure where it is. How am I supposed to do the homework?
• My books are reeeeeally heavy.
• I have a 5-10 page write up for a case due on Friday in CS. *death*

I know other people have got it way worse than I do, but can my luck turn around just a little bit? Pretty please?

It Just Gets Better & Better...

Just got back from the bookstore. $730.90. My parents are gonna stroke out. And one of my books, the one I actually need more than any of the others, is sold out. I had to special order it, and the lady at the bookstore told me it should "hopefully" be here by the end of the week. I've already asked one of my friends who took it last year if I can borrow his book until I get mine, but he wasn't sure if he still has it...so please cross your fingers that he does! It'd be nice to run into a little bit of good luck this semester.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh!!!!!!! Everything going on right now just makes me want to screeeeeeeeeeeeam. And throw things. And hit people.

B.Positive

I'm not really done wallowing in self-pity over how much I think my life sucks right now, but I am at least done with it for tonight. Today I downloaded John Legend's "Once Again" album. It's fantastic! I unpacked all of my stuff and decluttered my desk, which included putting most of my picture frames in the closet. Now the only photos on my desk are one of my mom, one of Tyler & Xena, and a frame reserved for a picture of Max as soon as it gets here (hopefully by the end of the week). I also spent the afternoon hanging out with Laura and learning how to play Guitar Hero. Then we went out for ice cream. Ice cream makes a lot of things better.

Conversation Hearts are delicious.

Conspiracy Theory

Wichita got its first snow of the season--and it was a big one--during the 2 weeks between Thanksgiving and the end of finals. It had pretty much all melted by the time I got back home. I was home for 6 weeks, and the most snow I saw was a few flurries and a bunch of ice. Now--a mere 24 hours after returning to school--my hometown has been blanketed in half a foot of snow. I think it's a conspiracy to make sure I don't get to enjoy snow at all this year.

And the worst part? I'm missing out on seeing Max play in the snow.

Insomnia

I can't sleep. My mom hit the road about 30 minutes ago, hoping to beat the latest bout of ice & snow. I hope she makes it home safely...yesterday she dozed off while driving and veered off into the oncoming lane...luckily there weren't any cars coming, and the construction cones she hit woke her up.

I guess since I can't sleep, I might as well write about the past 6 weeks. The short version: I got Max the day I came home, but it was all downhill from there. I spent my first 3 weeks at home working, usually going in sometime between 4 and 7 in the morning. While I was working, I spent a lot of time at my dad's house (not fun). During my first week at home, my mom got really sick, so when I wasn't working I was taking care of her. During my second week at home, I got really sick. It seemed like it took me forever to get well. I was even sick on Christmas. Also while I was sick, I got a call from Dr. Scott telling me that he never received my International Economics final and rework (which I spent almost $15 to mail). He gave me an incomplete in the class and said that if he couldn't track it down (I've got proof that it was delivered, but unfortunately I was too stupid to make copies of the test before I mailed it), I'd have to redo it. I still have an incomplete, and I haven't heard from him, so I'm guessing that I'll probably have to redo it... Okay, so after I got well and quit my job, I had a week at home to get ready for Michael's visit. That week wasn't so bad...I mostly spent a lot of time with Max. Then Michael came to visit, and it didn't go well at all. He was supposed to stay for a week, but ended up only staying for 48 hours. We broke up. I spent the rest of that week not doing much of anything, other than stressing out about the weather situation. The roads ended up being too bad to travel last weekend, so I didn't get to come back to school until this weekend. So I missed an entire week of classes. And, unfortunately, I got here after the bookstore closed, so I can't go buy my books until Monday morning. So I can't start on any of that make up work until next freaking week.

And as bad as my break was, I'm homesick already. I miss Max so much, and I'm worried about what he's going to think when my mom comes home without me.

P.S. I forgot to mention all of the weird dreams I had over the break: my mom died suddenly, I found a lump in my breast, and I got pregnant. Hopefully these dreams won't be coming true.

My Version of a Drinking Song

Being back at school is weird. I don't feel like I changed over the break or anything, but I don't really feel like I fit right back in where I left off. It seems like there's always a little period of adjustment when I change habitats.

I drank a shot of vodka over the course of about 2 hours. Obviously, I don't feel anything. Except maybe sad and a little slow.

I just downloaded a couple of songs by 2 of my favorite artsits, one from Lily Allen and one from Jack Johnson.

Being a week behind stinks. And I miss Max.

Introducing Maximus

I got a dog. It was over a month ago, like December 9th or whatever day I went home. He's a 4-year old miniature schnauzer. His previous owner had named him Frank, but I thought that was a horrible name for such a sweet little dog. So I named him Maximus. My little Max was groomed a couple weeks after this picture was taken, so now he actually looks like a schnauzer. I miss his long curls, but not the smell that accompanied them. My baby boy loves to dress up in cute little t-shirts (he has 4 of them to choose from!), and his favorite song is "Fergalicious" (we dance whenever the video comes on VH1). As silly as it sounds, I love him more than anything. I already miss the sound of his collar jingling as he runs around the house and his warm little body curling up in my lap while I watch TV. It's the biggest downside of being back at school.